Litany:
- I have heartburn all the time.
- I have the wickedest cold with the wickedest cough I've ever had.
- I can take exactly NOTHING for it.
- I went to the med check today just to be sure I didn't have pneumonia (I don't). She said I had a 'bad' URI, except not an infection, just a virus. I know it's better to not need antibiotics, but just like with my kids, I wish it were something fixable, just the same.
- I couldn't see the doctor last week. They are making us see everyone in the practice and every time I've seen a different doctor, I've had to wait in excess of like 30 minutes. It burns my ASS to wait longer than the appointment is going to take. So last time I left and I canceled my appointment this week, because it was with another doctor.
- But then I had high blood pressure - not super high, 142 over ... 78 or something but not great, certainly higher than it's been. So I called to make an appointment to see my doctor and FIRST the girl said that she'd 'try to figure out who I could see' and THEN, when I said I wanted to see MY doctor, she said, all snooty, that I was supposed to see my doctor anyway, here at 38 weeks. Whatever. Now I'm going on Friday. So I just ... hope the blood pressure isn't indicative of pre eclampsia or something? Mmmmkay.
- I am so tired.
- My back hurts.
- I can't sleep.
- My husband keeps telling me how it's SO CLOSE and it's not.
- I am a wussy. I can't take chronic pain.
- I know that if I weren't pregnant and I had such a cold, I'd just glug Nyquil straight from the bottle and sleep and sleep.
- I can't wait to go to the hospital and meet this baby AND not be pregnant anymore.
- I'm scared nursing is going to hurt since it's been so long since I've done it.
- I'm scared the baby isn't going to be okay.
- I'm scared it's going to be a boy and a) have to be circumcised and b) have autism.
- I'm scared I can't do it. Four kids. FOUR KIDS. ONE OF THEM IS KATHLEEN! She crazy!
- My parents are leaving town to be snowbirds when this baby is five days old.
On the plus side:
- I can do this, I've done it before.
- If I had pre eclampsia, it would probably present with other symptoms, right?
- Who cares if this baby has autism? We should probably cross that bridge when we come to it. Ditto: circumcision.
- I know this cold will go away the second the baby is born.
- Less than two weeks is less than two weeks, it is kind of soon.
- My parents drive me crazy anyway, who cares if they're not here.
- New baby! New person!